I had intended that this would be my the last post. When life is plodding on there is little to report – except perhaps that life is plodding on. Ten years ago I might not have been so sure. And five years ago, when my cancer returned – and when this particular blog began – my chances of reaching the 10th anniversary of diagnosis, looked decidedly dodgy. But here I am.
But I’m scheduled to have a final scan in April 2016 and so perhaps that will be the time to finally draw a line under this particular journal.
I had a scan in April this year and the oncologist, seeing no sign of the disease, was prepared to discharge me. But we insisted on one more scan – we were at the very same point in April 2010 when the final scan then turned out to be anything but.
I had a successful voice operation in October 2014 at the Queen Elizabeth Hospital in Birmingham; I can now sing again – not as I did before, but well enough to get invites to take part in the occasional gig. In October this year I managed a week’s tour of Germany with some old band mates, performing 5 gigs in 5 night. It did a lot for my confidence – a much needed boost to my morale. But it did not do a lot for my heart.
The Gods of Arrhythmia have returned with a vengeance. After the lung resection in 2010 I was diagnosed with Atrial Flutter for which I had an Ablation. This cured the flutter but resulted in Atrial Fibrillation. In the past three months this has suddenly got worse; episodes have gone from around once a month to one every two days. There is no obvious explanation for this – the usual suspects – alcohol, caffeine and heavy spicy meals have be eliminated from my diet. And still they come. I am now waiting for a Coronary CT scan to see what, if anything, is going on inside my heart.
Although the disease now appears to have gone, the consequences haven’t. I’m stuck with them. Of course I am not alone in this; I cannot imagine any member of the Cancer family getting off Scot-free. Cancer might go, but it always leave something behind – a reminder of its visit.
Despite this, I am looking forward to 2016. I have plans. I hope you do too. Good luck.