Author Archives: ians05

I went to the doctor

I went to the doctor and the doctor said son, you look older than me and I’m seventy-one.¹ I read somewhere that you should not go your GP with a list of symptoms.  One or two maybe, but not a … Continue reading

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Mutt and Jeff

I need all my wits about me today.  Be alert.  I do my homework; copious notes, a list of questions to ask (numbered) and an update to my arrhythmia graph.  I do all this because Annie is off on a … Continue reading

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two fat dogs

At any other time this venture would be pleasurable.  And fun.  Although, as it turns out, both these qualities are present in some degree.  Which is just as well given that my previous post was a real ‘downer’ coming hard … Continue reading

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So this is Christmas

It’s Wednesday 19th December, early afternoon. Somewhere, a radio is playing the usual Yuletide selection.  Annie and I are sitting at the kitchen table making a list for the Christmas shopping.  We have Annie’s mum coming for a week and … Continue reading

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special day number 7: december 16th 2012

Well here we are again – another year gone – and seven since this particular journey began.  Seven years.  Seven years to the day since I first set foot in CancerWorld. Seven years is a long time – a Biblical … Continue reading

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if the nurse comes in we’re doomed: continued….

It’s been three long months.  Good months and bad months.  I can hardly remember a more turbulent period of highs and lows in my life – at least not since I was a teenager.  Annie’s not immune from the roller … Continue reading

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arrhythmia, economics and ice-cream

“This is not normal”.  I’m at the cardiology clinic, showing my latest arrhythmia graph to the consultant.  It shows a more or less horizontal line of dots (splodges rather – thanks to the cheap printer paper I’ve used) spaced at … Continue reading

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A letter to my body

I’ve been avoiding you for ages.  It’s not you – it’s me.  (I know, they all say that).  I’m a bit squeamish, or rather, used to be.  But this letter is long overdue.  I want to say thank you. The … Continue reading

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thank you for the days; part 2

So now I’m retired; it’s been long anticipated¹ but when it finally comes, it comes quickly.  A last minute flurry of activity, then a pub lunch, hugs and handshakes and promises to keep in touch.  A momento, thoughtfully chosen, reminds me … Continue reading

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What he said – and what he wrote (or why do things always seem worse in black and white?)

He said; “there’s a hot spot in your belly … near your ribs”. He wrote: (the hot spot is in) the … transverse colon. He said; “we don’t know what it is ….. if it’s big enough to worry about … Continue reading

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